Good Days, Bad Days, & Me

Where to begin....I am having some rough days lately. It's not you, or the kids or, the lack of Scrabbulous. It's me. I need to get a life. I need some more friends.... I need something outside of home with them. I need a girlfriend to go work out with. I need a renter in the suite so I won't be so broke (and pretending not to be) anymore. I need for Christopher to not be going away for 12 days. I need to get rid of the 13lbs that moving and summer socializing have put on me. I know you are thinking socializing... I thought she said she needed friends? The socializing with people who aren't (yet) truly your friends just seems a bit fake and then you feel more empty than when you started. make sense? I need a girlfriend or a mother to help me pick prescription sunglasses. And although I asked someone I am not sure about following up with them, I am nervous and kinda feel like crying. I hate the way I am feeling.

Scrabulous

For some reason there seems to be a problem in the land of fb scrabulous and I am not enjoying not having it. I really hope they get their crap sorted out soon. I was going to blog about other things but now I am consumed with the loss of my games.... what Will I do with all my 'free time' now? Laundry? Dishes? Vacuuming?....nah I think I'll go shopping instead!!!! hahaha
Likely I will post more later.

Some one gets on my nerves. And they are here right now. And they have managed to annoy me to a maximum capacity and I don't even know if I have spoken directly to them since they got here. Where is my compassion for the retarded?
There is obviously something more personal going on here. I am wondering do I blog it or just tell everyone when I next talk to them..........
Pondering

This'n'That

I could add captions but, I prefer to let your mind do the thinking. Mostly this is just one of those kid update things. They are well, and happy and growing (according to people who haven't seen them in just over a month).


Gabriel passed his swimming and is now a crocodile! Sunfish went way faster than I thought it would. I am so proud of him. He seems bigger to me lately... growing up I suppose. Michael seems big too, I just wish he could be himself more than being his brother's shadow. Likely in September when they have more apart time that will happen.

P.S. I love how my tan is working out for me since Canada Day. SPF 15! Skin cancer? What skin cancer? It's a healthy glow. LOL

Best Wife Ever

What's more important? to be a good wife or have a good husband? For me they are the same thing, it just makes sense that to be an awesome wife you need a great husband. Otherwise everyone is just miserable. My husbands friends (who are really his brothers friends) think I am awesome because I 'let' my husband go to play golf, poker and watch fights with them. The thing is, these things make him happier and if he's happier then we are all happier. It's a vicious cycle of JOY. In return for letting my husband go out and get happy, he comes home happy and feeling like he owes me (so I WIN more), plus he has friends. The friends really are making this adjustment to the new town worth it for all of us.

Cheaters

Upon occasion I have been known to have a questionable sense what's acceptable and what's not.
I have recently reconnected with a certain friend (whom I doubt reads but just in case shall remain nameless). We have been friends for almost 15 years. On and off depending on the ebb and floe of life, relationships, and geography. This friend is ever true and fiercely loyal to all that they care about. Their spouse on the other hand is a cheater. Has been caught twice and in the middle of a third if I count correctly. I have only ever been friends with one half of this couple and do my best at all times to remain polite and neutral to the cheater for the sake of my true friend. I try to remember that 'if they are ok with it then it's none of my business'. But currently I am upset by the cheaters complete disregard for the feelings of others and the implications of their actions on others. Sick. Just sick. Cheating on your spouse really does make me ill. There really is a line there, it really did get crossed. Shouldn't you suffer the consequence as painfully or more as the person you have hurt with your carelessness for them? Truly I feel the cheater should be hurting from this and not my friend. I can't really say much to my friend, the hopeless romantic, hoping it isn't true this time. There isn't anything I can say... Once a cheater always a cheater... You should have gotten out sooner...You can do better... You deserve better...I always knew they were bad luck...
Argh other peoples drama.
In happier news I am happy. My kids are happy and crazy. We had a great weekend. J & A are engaged. The walls are coming down in the basement.
Post with pics to come?

GHW

I am avoiding the things I should be doing by playing on the Internet. I have vacuumed though. And packed the kitchen stuff and the kids stuff. The things that I want to post about still all have pictures on the other computer so I guess I will write about GHW.
GHW is a friend of Chris's from college. He is a true friend who has helped us move too many times. He is a few years older than us and I call him that old guy in a loving way ;)
GHW found out during our most recent move that I blog. He asked me why and I couldn't really answer, mostly just because, I guess. I never told him what it was called I think I prefer it if I can still write what I want about most people and they don't even know it's here. Not that I have anything negative to say about GHW just sometimes....most of the time this is where I let my bad days out and not really everybody in real life needs to see/hear about it....oops tangent.
GHW is an amazing cook. He is in a healthy relationship after a long absolutely rotten one. He is tall and witty beyond your imagination, sensitive and gives amazing hugs. The situation is this, she is in Montreal and he is in Vancouver. Both of them have really good reasons for staying where they are and both would really like to be together full time.
When we were all hanging out drinking beer after moving (after the discovery of the blog) he asked me which I would choose... business or spouse? My answer was 'Isn't it obvious I chose family, spouse, home?' It's such an easy decision for me. He said 'wow Mer, just like that she knows without a doubt and full of conviction'. Yes, of course I do. I want GHW to be have his cake and eat it too. I get to everyday! (some days it just doesn't taste as sweet though)
I don't really remember the point... there are a few in here.

Surfing

Real surf pictures to come when we get home after we go. Make sense? He loves it. This is a part of what the yard looks like ;)

The Lake

I should really post pictures with these words but, I'm not. I just wanted to let you know that I spent a fabulous weekend at a local type lake with my kids a best friend and her kids. My kids had a blast at the beach and being looked after by Nana and Papa didn't hurt either. I think Michael may have gotten some sun where I missed with the screen but shhh don't tell Chris. lol. I am tired. Gabriel starts swimming lessons in the morning and we leave for TOFINO on Thursday after work (Chris' work).
Tofino is for camping and surfing and being with friends. None of these friends have kids though so there is hope that other adults will be helpful and not USELESS when being around my kids. Also I am really hoping that certain people will watch their language and behaviour in front of my kids. Mostly I am hoping to have fun and not be excluded due to the fact that I am someones mother and need to have a certain level of 'responsibility.
Wow I am hopeful tonight since I hope to post more...with pictures this week too :)!

House PIctures

I think this post has probably been the most anticipated, so that's why it's first.
Crap. well not to disappoint further but due to the fact that I have a new amazing fast computer there are no pictures on it and they aren't on the camera either. They are on the old computer, which is being borrowed by Amanda for her homework, because her computer stopped working. So what to post about then? I guess This will be my New computer post!
We got this new computer and we thought it was broken upon installing something and it was very sad that for weeks we still had to use the S-L-O-W (OLD) one, but Christopher found a thing and the figured out how to work it and fixed it and it's so fast and I love it. All my favorites aren't in it yet though so I haven't checked other blogs since last week. What else can I say about it? not much really except that it is awesome and I am excited about it.

So many things, so few posts

Last night while falling asleep I thought about things I have been meaning to blog about. I think I need to re-instate the reminder list.
For now the reminder list will be here I guess

• GHW
• New computer
• House Pics
• Kids news
• Milly news
• seclusion
• Camping. Canada Day and other dates

So, Is there anything else that I have promised and forgotten? Or other things you want to know and I have neglected to address? Leave a comment to let me know